Day 3

Still not smoked although last night I could have been tempted, just a bit bored in truth and feeling slightly below par.

In two hours time I will have the pleasure of collecting my neice(ish) from creche and endeavouring to amuse her without recourse to the idiots lantern. I managed this minor feat last week and felt that we had a fantastic time together, indeed I would say that I was at my avuncular best. I made my right hand into Bob and my right foot into Rosie, she was allowed to decorate them as she pleased and sat enraptured with their conversation for several hours.

Tallulah (left hand) was also called into play and Rosie was eventually retired as she was a bit rude and bit loud.

Then we read about 6 books together.

Then her Mum arrived and I didn't warrant another word, not even a goodbye. Fair enough, you may say, she is very close to her Mum and loves her to the exclusion of all others. However, I saw her again on Sunday when she was with her father and she had not a word for me then either, not a hello, not a goodbye, nothing.

I know I shouldn't be hurt by the whimsies of a four year old but it's hard not to react in a childish and vengeful fashion. Not that I plan to jab forks into her eyes this afternoon but I would like to hear what she has to say about it.

Of course she may not give it a moments thought, she's too occupied with serious thought to worry about such childish things but she may be able to cast some light on her actions.

Perhaps I'll sulk.

Otherwise I've put a stop to the auto generated comments I've been getting (which should end forever the thrill of thinking that someone else reads this crap) and am having serious second thoughts about yesterday's enthusiasm for the job at the Golf Club.

That's what I mean about not trusting my emotions, one day I'm out of here, next day I'm applying for a job here, today I'm placid, tomorrow...who knows.

Didn't start my daily star rating system either.

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