Still holding on in there

Did I mention that I'm trying to adopt a positive outlook?

I think it works to a degree although it may be an effective ploy for as long as my return to work remains something of a novelty. I've been back cheesing for only four days and although I've stopped some way short of referring to my colleagues in a negative and offensive manner (You're all a bunch of fucking cunts"), I have felt a familiar bile and anger inhabiting my body.

I'm doing six days a week at present at present but that's just plain daft so I'll be cutting back as of next week to a more manageable five or even four days.

I'm also doing a couple of hours at the school, working with a boy who wants to improve his reading skills. Hopefully we'll get on and it won't seem like too much of a chore although at present I'm heading straight there from the cheesy which will probably take a lot of the fun out of it.

Needless to say all attempts at writing have ground to a halt which is another good reason for cutting back on my working week. There's only about a week to go until the short story competition closes and I'm fairly confident that I'll have neither the time or the inclination to carry out the required polishing, not to mention finishing it and thinking of a plot.

Did I mention the amusing local spoof newspaper that I've done? Quite pleased with that but again the momentum has dissipated somewhat. Must get my inspiration back. Less perspiration and more of the other.

If this is the best I can do no wonder I'm uninspired.